With precisely two weeks to go till our due date (February 18th) my nerves are starting to ramp up! I know everything is going to change…but I don’t know when. I think due dates are cruel because it’s an unrealistic date set by a computer nine months ago. Due months are more appropriate…a bracket of time in which it is possible you may (or may not) have a baby. With our first son Max, we were “two weeks late” and allowed ourselves to be talked into inducing and going through a very clinical experience for our birth. “Late” may be the worst word used by the medical community in relation to a pregnancy – you can’t be “late” for something that doesn’t have a schedule! Once we were deemed “late” we had an induction scheduled. When the induction started we were placed on an unrealistic timetable and rushed by a doctor that wanted to go home and get to bed rather than let nature take its course. When their rushing us didn’t work…they pulled the pitocin and forced Kate into a Cesarean section. That is why I hate the word “late” and cannot recommend our old doctor to anyone.
Our baby is at that point where he’s out of room and so his kicks have been replaced by squirming and rolling. I couldn’t sleep last night, so lay awake in bed staring at the back of my eyelids scaring myself with thoughts of all the things that could go wrong. I’m so used to the baby kicking me when my wife and I cuddle that when he didn’t last night…I began dreaming up all kinds of stupid things. Then real fears set in such as will he be mentally developed? Will there be unforeseen complications with the pregnancy? Will he be healthy? With so many colds, the flu, and bugs going around right now it is scary! There is some four-week respiratory thing sweeping through Wichita along with a five-day stomach bug! I know of a few babies who have gotten RSV in the past month. Kate and I both got the flu shot and the DTaP shot and anyone that wants to hold the baby after he’s born will need to have done the same. Last pregnancy I was on the fence about vaccinations for the baby…this time around I’m crystal clear.
It’s weird how different having a second child is compared to a first child. With our first one I grappled over whether or not to have him circumcised…a hot topic on this site and across the web. My question to the internet of should I should circumcise my son or not launched a massive debate with comments from around the world. When I declared my belief that every parent must decide what they feel is best, I began receiving death threats via email accusing me of “condoning genital mutilation” and wanting to “murder my son’s foreskin.” With the second child there is no debate, my wife and I know exactly what our stance is, and I’m happy to say that stance is a private matter and not up for discussion online. However, if you have not made up your mind about circumcision you should click HERE to read the debate for better or for worse.
Last time around I had so much doubt about my ability to be a parent. Will he love me? Will I be a good father? Will he accept me? Now I’m more practical in my stress and want to know when he’ll be here and how we’ll afford him. I am completely nervous and I totally blame Max, my gorgeous two-year-old son. Max is so well-behaved that I feel completely unprepared for this baby. Max has been so easy that there is no way there can be a repeat of ease. Max eats everything, runs on a schedule (which he is flexible with), sleeps through the night, communicates very well, is extremely patient, and can do many things himself. How has that prepared me to have a child?!!! Max (to date) has been easier than a puppy with the exception that I can’t put Max out in the back yard if he’s been bad. On the plus side, I am comforted in knowing he is overly self-sufficient for a kid his age which will come in super handy as Kate and I zombie our way through life the next few months with the baby.
The 38th week of pregnancy has begun!
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